London,
29.6.53

Dear Bossy,

I had your letter of the 21st and today I got yours of the 22nd and 24th. I sent a cable explaining that I have sent the medicine you have asked for by El Al and it should have arrived on Sunday morning at Lydda. It was sent in the name of the Dr. Mayerhardt and I enclosed her prescription. I do so very much hope that you had no great difficulty in getting it out. My love, I naturally agree with the things you will be trying to do for Moshe on the advice of the Doctor and I pray that everything turns out O.K. From your letters I understand that you have utter faith and confidence in her and that she is the sort of a woman you can wish to look at Moshe. All the things she proposes to do are quite serious, especially the fever treatment and I beg of you to keep me informed so that I will not go mad here. My love, do you think I shall do well to come back or do you think it better for me to try and arrange something here? To do something here is not at all easy, but I have my hopes. I am sorry that I am not at home to help you over this, but if my people and Mordi are helping you, I want to hope that it will be alright. What sort of person must you get who will teach Moshe, if God willing things turn out well. I imagine the doctor will be able to advise you and you better make the arrangements from now, so that you will not be left high and dry when the time comes. Has Moshe not advanced at all and have we wasted all this time? What in heaven’s name is that illness you area speaking of and what is the cause of it and what are the consequences?

I do hope you will feel better now and will not be so very nervous. What happened with your urine test, I trust everything was fine. You ask me to trust you and to be sure that you will be doing all that is necessary for the kid. Well, I don’t have to tell you that I have utter confidence in you and I pray that you are right and that the doctor does know what she is doing. Now it is my turn to ask – what does she mean by saying Moshe’s is not a Physical fault? Will he be able to establish contact, or more important still, will we be able at establish contact with him? How about a spine injury, is that not a possibility? He once fell pretty badly on his behind and after the fall had looked very peculiar. Do mention that to her. Why should he take notice of things and not of people and why did he not see the red she dangled in front of him? Lastly, darling, what are the chances? I know she will not say, but you must have formed an opinion. What about the blood tests, did they show anything at all? My love, if there is anything she wants from here, do please let me know. She may want to consult somebody or to read something about the case and I can let her have whatever she may need. As to the money, what is money for if you cannot help your child. To hell with everything else, such as broken furniture and other monstrosities. Please, darling, you must relax a bit and I cannot see how you can do this if you will have to be so careful with Moshe over a long period. How will you look after Liki and Ruth? Maybe you can go down and Mordi can go up or some other arrangement to make life a bit easier for you. To tell you that I miss you would be a stupid thing – I cry in the night for you and with all these troubles I tear my hair that I am so far away. Do let me know if you want me to come back or what do you advise. You know best and don’t be so very heroic about it. Think it out and let me know what you think will be best. I am glad that my people are co-operating since that makes it much easier for you. If you let Mordi help he will be most helpful, as he always is when he feels that he is needed. My love, I don’t want you to write long letters, but please write more frequently just keeping me informed. Otherwise I shall be so very worried that I shall be no good to myself or anybody else. And you must tell me the truth and everything, that way I will know the worst and not imagine things. Promise me that and then I can be quite normal and will be able to take everything in my stride. At the moment I cannot think of anything else and all my thoughts are with you and the children and all my prayers. Please God, we shall do our best and may we hope that there will be something we can do to help Moshe. He is in for a lot of pain and trouble and he must have the warmth of your love and care. Hug him for me and tell him how much I love him and how much he is in my thoughts and that there is nothing I will not do for him. Hug him for me, darling, and help him all you can. Poor little baby what a lovely boy he is and if he know he will try for our sakes. He must have a heart of gold. At least, Bossy darling, you are doing something to help him while I am here just eating my heart out. How is Loki taking all this? The baby too needs you and you are probably torn to shreds by all three of them. You should not try to do the impossible. Be sensible and look after yourself too, for it all rests upon you now. When was he supposed to have started the illness and it is still going on. Do, please, explain this for me. I shall try and get to know what it means but maybe she will be explaining to you what it is. Do you mean to say that he cannot and does not know how to speak or what has the illness done to him? Is he, God forbid, not going to develop at all, should she not succeed in what she is trying out? Do look after yourself, my love. Regards to my people and my thanks. Write to me often, even shortly. Adore you and miss you.